If I am no more!

To quote some of the words my ex' and his family have asked people to tell me through their contacts in Sri Lanka & their demands are..... "it was not Our intention to kidnap ABU, we only wanted him to grow up with his family among his community" ( who am i to my son? ) also that they "want the mother to drop the charges against the kidnapper" and "then they are ready to hand over the child" they want me to come to Malawi on these conditions! how do i trust them???? and if i dont? what do they imply by saying this? i have received this message from very high authorities! I have said i will withdraw the case once my son is returned to me! THIS IS RECORDED EVEN IN COURT! why is my word, given and spoken so freely not accepted? I did not deceive them! I did not run away! I am not the one playing with a 4 year old's life! WHY??? Is there no justice left in this world?

without this case why would they give me my child back? I will go to the end of the world for my child but if i am no more, who will fight this? who will save my child from these people? my voice is too thin and hence this whole case is being hushed down! Please help me be heard! help me be louder! save my child!

During this time if anything happens to me! please somebody, save my son! Dont let them bring him up like them and do things that they have done! Please dont let Abu to grow up and be in so much debt that he has to run away from the country! I dont want my child to grow up a lier, a cheat, an abuser or a thief who steals other people's money and child and walks away like it's his right to do so!

Please help me!